Sunday, November 18, 2012

I'm letting you go ... slowly

i think i always got your messages, but i just didn't want to face it before.  i'm a walking contradiction- fragile but strong, and confident and weak, caring but not a caregiver, smart and stupid, and emotion and logical, along with tons of other things.  i'm starting to sound like a person with multiple personalities

on one hand, i felt threatened by the other women and yet, i also felt like i had no right to feel jealous since i was also seeing other people.  additionally, i think deep down i felt like i was such a great catch that you couldn't pass up.  i didn't understand why you would reject me.  then i self-reflected and realized that i had major faults.

life doesn't always pan out the way you want it to.  i need to focus on myself now.

don't worry, i'm letting you go.  i cried a good session the other day and i felt much better the next morning.

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