It's been a week since I last contacted my lover, and I can't stop thinking about him. I wake up in the middle of the night to thoughts of him and I know it's only been a week, so the beginning is always the hardest.
He's already told me that he doesn't want to commit and he's never told me he loves me so I'm pretty sure this is a dead-end relationship. What to do? I've already made up my mind to cut him off but I miss him like crazy. LIKE CRAZY ... WHy, oh why doesn't he love me back? Where did I go wrong? Our sexual chemistry is out of this world and yet ... he still doesn't love me. I think we're compatible in a lot of other ways.
I guess I don't stir emotions in him that shakes up his world. My goal has always been to make a difference in this world, to be a trailblazer in one aspect of life. I had already given up hope that I would be a super successful career woman and instead turned my focus onto fostering a good family life. I can't even move the one person that I've been intimately involved with and that really makes me wonder, do I even have any influential abilities?
How can I be an inspiration to strangers and those beyond my immediate circles if I can't even motivate those closest to me?
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